huh...well. I'm looking at this before and after pic of some girl in a weight loss advertisement...and I'm thinking Ano-rex-ic!

Anyway, blah I feel so blah today. Work was too much...running...around....x___x

There is a lot of contraversy going on in the KPOP media right now...DaYUM! It's up the wazul sorry

anyway, I have to work on me. ME! I need something that reminds me why I'm doing anything! I'll write ch. 2 now. This post has no direction, really. I think it's my brain trying to make sense of what I feel, but it's failing me right now...oh and this was a conversation btwn me and a co-worker

Co-worker : "I'm craving musturd, idk why i hate muster! But i'm craving it with everything!"
me: o__O okay...maybe you're preg-
co-worker: shut up! if you say I'm pregnate i'll hurt you! I'm sorry, I wouldn't but just don't say it!
me: O_____________O okay, i wont. *cough*


.......i think she's nutz anyway.

I can't believe I finished my Science Report...last minute! With so much time to spare...so I guess it's not exactly last minute, but it's due tomorrow! Whooo I feel so relieved :D Now I can focus on the important this like writing (finishing) fanfics, and watching Big Bang Documentary...yeah! Damn, I have to study for the final still! Ugh....Okay, but that wont take too long. I know! I'll try that mind trick where I chew on gum while I study, and then again while I take the test...They say it works to remember what you study, hope it does!!!!!!!!!! 

B to the I to the G B to the A and G Get Ur Handz up high!~

Code Monkey likes Fritos. Code Monkey likes TAB and Mountain Dew.

I'm so freaking COLD! I have one month, one month, one month left~if all goes well~ Man, I need to write Yoosu fiction, seriously! I have an idea, but i'm so...idk...I jump around fiction so fast, I get sick. Zoomerang, I thank you! I need this! I need this! I need to have something for MY self, because I'm so tired of being the lame one with nothing!

I'm going to start the fic now, since I have untill 11:30 before I have to go~ seeya! 

P.S

I know you like to think your shit don't stink, but if you lean a little bit closer you will see; roses really smell like boo-boo-boo!

Mwuahahahahahahahaha >D Betches!  

I like the way NyQuil feels an hour after I take it. I get really sleepy and relaxed...almost. Except when I'm on the couch and I stumble to my bed. But then I'm out. Completely out. No more thinking. No more tossing. No more stupid thoughts. Just black and quietness. I like that.

No, I'm not abusing NyQuil, I just got over a bad cold so I'm just thinking back on experiences. So now I'm back on Stupid thoughts, tossing, thinking, and NOT sleeping peacefully.

"The most important words I'll ever say to you, Will be the words you hear when I'm not around.....Listen close, say goodbye."

I like those words....

I keep thinking about a book by the name of "It's Kind of A Funny Story" If you have not read it, you should. By the Author Ned Vizzini. This book made me realize other people like using the restroom to pee. LOL I know that sounds crazy but, it's like an escape almost. Idk, I always thought I was the only one that felt like that until I read the book. It's nothing gross, it's just that so many people expect too much from me, so I should hope no one follows me into the restroom, so I get away from all of that...makes scense? No, okay. Well anyway, if you haven't read the book...you should!

Anyway, I'm going to bed now.

Well, here is what's new! I'll list them, because I can and want.

0. Lame attempts to get my I.D.! First Attempt, I get to the the black ropes, and then my dad is all like, "It's too crowded let's get out of here!" Second attempt, THE PLACE IS CLOSED!! Third attempt, I'm a few people behind the black ropes...I don't have an I.D.!!!! OMG!! That's what I'm there for, to get my I.D. but I need another I.D. to get this I.D.!??!?! RETARDED!!!!!!!!

1. Finally got my I.D. after the fourth day!! It's all good though, because I was taught a very valuble lesson as hard as it is to understand.

2. Went to see a show with my friend Michelle in it as one of the leads! Yay for Michelley! I hope she's okay. hmmmm...

3. Some people found out I'm pervy...but not the "good kind" of pervy lol (according to her). But, I likes mah gaey men all up on each other! >__<

4. Got sick, and I'm just now recovering. I caught the common cold, and I think it was someone who coughed or sneezed or did both on me while I was standing at the DMV place.

5. My dog got hit by a car...he's fine, he didn't actually get ran over by it, but he got hit. So his walk is wonky. Apparently it happened while I was asleap this morning. My dad woke me up so I could take care of him, while he was out. Weird thing was, that I was dreaming of dogs...and my dog just before my dad woke me.

6. Now. I'm just recapping what happened. Thinking back, I'm glad i've been through all of this already... I need to go to another show, to support more friends! Oh right, I need to call about that...see ya soon. =l

DON'T FUCKING PLAY THAT 'GUILTY BY ASSOCIATION' SHIT ON ME!

I'm tired of not feeling good enough. Every time I have fun with people, someone always stands there breathing down my neck and making me feel stupid and not good enough. No, I'm not insulting anyone when we drive by people. And no, I'm not drinking alcohol with them. No, I'm not an Idiot, and No, I'm not making out with homos and lesbos and self proclaimed Bisexuals I'm not even making out with Heteros!. And NO, I'M NOT MAKING A FOOL OUT OF MYSELF! But Yes, I am having fun, and I'm laughing.  Every time I'm with them, you make me feel as if i'm an idiot, and that i'm going down a spiral or some shit like that. I'm not sure what I want, but I know exactly what I don't want. And when I think about how far I have to get there, I want to cry and give up. But, then what example am I to those who want to get out. I NEED TO GET OUT! AND I FUCKING KNOW THAT! I'M TIRED OF FEELING LIKE YOU THINK YOU'RE BETTER THAN ME. I need to stop. Because if I'm going to continue being your friend, then I need to stop caring what you think about me. I think you're the first I had to do that with. But when you're around, I feel small and worthless.

But I know you don't know that...